November 7, 2007:
You were an alcoholic, too.
The narcissism, the self-pity, the rages, the difficulty making plans or making decisions or holding jobs, or sometimes even of concentrating for more than a few minutes.
A "dry drunk", they call you in rehab.
Your most central attribute is your need for control: of your family, your neighbors, your lovers, your dogs and cats.
I understand you better, now.