May 5, 2016:

Musicians I know sing from ceilings. Their voices are jarring: they force me into a mental and emotional space of questioning. What would my life have been?

I know the answer is "miserable".

Would that have been especially worse? It would have bought opportunities. Different pain, different possibilities: life in reality.

I like what I do. I like the resources it brings, and the people I meet. I would have been dissatisfied either way.