July 14, 2018:

Why did I forgive him?

Perhaps I felt I needed him. Perhaps my brain wasn't processing.

He was disloyal. With an incompetently worldly/cynical disloyalty no doubt decided for him by his wife Emma Bovary. Ordinarily I'd chop that cancerous limb right off. What made him the exception?

I certainly shed that other without hesitation. That tubby Texan frat boy with the trust fund and the idea that he would steal my copyrights.

Yet I grieved and in part still do for the loss of my friend.