April 19, 2019:

We never had proper sex. I fingered her a couple of times, she sucked me for a few minutes. We made out a lot. A lot. I loved that. It was sweet, and she's a lovely kisser.

There was so much promise in those first few weeks. The joy of unlimited possibility. Where half of our conversations were fantasies of what the future would bring.

But the movie which formed in our heads was false, or if it had been true for a time it became false as circumstances changed. The revised movie wasn't right for either of us.