April 23, 2019:

I don't know why I'm so hostile to that one. Except, I perfectly well do.

She was stupid. That's not hyperbole, she's dumb as a plant. For a long time I didn't understand that, I thought it was language barrier or some other benign interference. Eventually I had to face up: she's simply very very slow.

She was selfish. It was all about her, every minute, where her demands to be either entertained or fulfilled were never-ending.

She was manipulative. "At home in Thailand when a friend..." Or, "My husband always knows..."

I'm angry over the wasted time, the wasted emotion. Probably above all, over the fact that there were no lessons there to learn.