February 22, 2019:

Sophisticated, experienced.

A certain reserve which I found tough to penetrate. Didn't laugh much, although when she did it was lovely. Brilliant, thoughtful, articulate. Jaded. Obviously gorgeous.

Boundaries. Commitment. "There are some men who are comfortable with that." She seems to be.

A culture I don't know, but would like to.

Fantasies of acceptance, and reciprocity.

They'd get along: this one and my little love. I'd be the third wheel.

I'm glad to have met her, although it's not what I want.