Lovers
- Martyr to her own beauty and the cruelty of others.
- I studied her reflection in the glass.
- I feel as old...
- Backroad bed and breakfast, somewhere in America.
- She pierced my ear with needle and string...
- Let's not talk of her experiments with other men.
- At the party you talk to everyone.
- Conflicted, bitter, acting out.
- "Thank you," she said...
- There was a night when she glowed in the dark.
- Her: I'm only doing this for you.
- Sad, eaten away.
- Brown love seat in a Bay Window, San Francisco Victorian.
- "My therapist says it's healthy to fantasize during sex."
- And of course it's night, and all you can think of is her.
- Insecurity.
- Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down...
- Up at the chairperson's table she turns...
- An artform, or a sport.
- Wound-to-kill fighting skills.
- Pain, sorrow, remorse, suspicion, jealousy, betrayal, guilt, disloyalty, vanity, anger.
- Permanent stress...
- I don't have to listen to music in the car anymore.
- I can keep the house tidy and free of clutter.
- Mark and Name Redacted, self portrait in motel room.
- We checked into a room.
- Christmas Eve at the Hotel Nefeli...
- Frequently, the ugly aura of intrigue.
- Through weeks of distance and drift I had no idea she was cheating.
- Lonely, uncertain, insecure.
- She's nervous, anxious, depressed...
- She feels she's lost herself.
- She accused me of teaching her consciousness.
- "I didn't sleep with him last night."
- Vacant, coquettish...
- Punk Rock Girl.
- I told her (because she asked), "It was the ups and downs."
- Hatred of her...
- She calls...
- We watched the election from a Motel 6 in Woodland Hills...
- While the household slept we took a bath, furtive and sexy and sweet.
- In Paris we made love in a sleeping bag...
- On a garage-sale couch...
- "I don't love you..."
- She needs me for something.
- She made love to me with a sad sort of desperate necessity...
- As the end approached she tried and tried to grow closer...
- Good days bad days, good hours bad hours.
- Backstreets, Sunset Cliffs.
- She made me more visual.
- Wild sex to end our breakup.
- She chose not to go to college...
- Tells me to take up with great beauty Michelle.
- Empty plans.
- Of course - let's be honest - there are second thoughts in all this.
- She takes her calls in phone booths, to keep them secret from me.
- Love is a dream of a better world.
- She believed in God.
- Happy.
- And that was that.
- Obsessional neurosis.
- Her complications have complicated me.
- She's more in love with sadness than with me.
- Astonishing and genuine...
- "I have too much dignity..."
- Catch you on the flip side.
- Give her her due.
- Wonder how old she is.
- Maybe it's her cynicism:
- She has no gag reflex.
- Vertigo.
- But it's a lie.
- Polaroids.
- "It was the worst experience of my life..."
- Haight Street emo...
- She took such delight in words I took for granted.
- Emma Bovary stands with hands on hips...
- Wounding words, calculated...
- She had no time for me today.
- Brittney with her snake tattoo...
- Drop-dead brilliant, and used to it.
- She's lonely, and she's lying.
- There's another from that period I have no pics of at all...
- There she is in her thrift store bowling shirt...
- Hurt, rejection, separation anxiety.
- A quiet evening.
- Maturity's a real thing, too.
- The truth is, I really didn't want the third.
- A lot of people don't want to be taken care of.
- Plus the everyday conflict of contrasting expectations.
- Weed and alcohol.
- It's about keeping her lover insecure.
- Our mothers reacted differently.
- That's the thing about chronic liars.
- Through all her shifting stories her loneliness stayed clear.
- In some ways I'm the world's greatest boyfriend.
- We walked down Columbus in the dark.
- Valentine card with love letter from her secret-not-secret man.
- In her arguments there is no search for truth.
- "You know nothing about women," she said bitterly...
- But there's that word, "evil".
- I loved her because she read books.
- I bought treats for her sweet doggie but she hurt me so I ghosted them both.
- Part One was a badass, Part Two a sneak.
- And then it snaps...
- You start with such enthusiasm...
- Then the sun walks through the door...
- it will be long
- "How many lovers have you had in your life?"