September 11, 2022:
Caffeine, bro.
Where the goals are: clarity of thought, improved daily stamina, heightened productivity.
But the reality is: self-medication, in the absence of Adderall.
September 10, 2022:
Where all of this, every note and chord, mirrors the exact mode in which my mother lived her own life, before mine and alongside.
September 9, 2022:
Yet in the same breath Trotsky also wrote:
"Life is beautiful. Let future generations cleans it of all that is evil, and enjoy it to the fullest."
That commitment saved me, once. Although it took a war to push me into activity. Without something major it's all couches and books and notes for what's never achieved.
Stupid life. Stupid, pointless, failed, wasted life.
- September 8, 2022: The exact moment one's personal box of days nears empty.
- September 7, 2022: Overlaid or overdetermined by growing sense of unreality.
- September 6, 2022: Sit, work or read, focus.
- September 5, 2022: Envy, and resentment.
- September 4, 2022: I wrote this twenty years ago:
- September 3, 2022: I don't want to be awake.
- September 2, 2022: When is it age?
- September 1, 2022: There's a photo of me with that evil fuck.
- August 31, 2022: I don't understand the kids who say they had a good experience there.
- August 30, 2022: Some days, straight to school.
- August 29, 2022: Chase the sunset.
- August 28, 2022: "Now I know how, now I know, now I know how a..."
- August 27, 2022: After a week of torment I have her fired.
- August 26, 2022: I can't promise that.
- August 25, 2022: Plumbing tourists.
- August 24, 2022: So that passing mirrors is all very shocking.
- August 23, 2022: Of course, I have absolutely no sense of the passage of this time.
- August 22, 2022: This is the 20th anniversary of these pieces.
- August 21, 2022: Borges as microfiction:
- August 20, 2022: Illegitimate offspring of OJ and Jim Brown:
- August 19, 2022: On the battlefield the breeze still blows.
- August 18, 2022: At the time it was considered so radical that we had co-ed bathrooms.
- August 17, 2022: Why change the bedsheets, when there's no-one to share them?
- August 16, 2022: "Quick random question..."
- August 15, 2022: Half of them have never encountered the expression "corner office".
- August 14, 2022: You could get alternate ribbons.
- August 13, 2022: I remember the smell of that machine.
- August 12, 2022: She saw, she conquered, I came.
- August 11, 2022: There was a moment when we could have connected.
- August 10, 2022: High Noon at the edge of the universe.
- August 9, 2022: Gunshots.
- August 8, 2022: The end?
- August 7, 2022: Thirty years ago
- August 6, 2022: The leadership is patronizing.
- August 5, 2022: Why am I crying?
- August 4, 2022: Once again the familiar-yet-strange city...
- August 3, 2022: The hotel day manager crowds you against the wall of your shower.
- August 2, 2022: Your friends want to drop into the convenience store for snacks.
- August 1, 2022: With a start you realize, again, that you've forgotten to pay the rent on your childhood apartment.
- July 31, 2022: Why am I crying?
- July 30, 2022: I hated the way my father treated his later children.
- July 29, 2022: I don't know my daddy.
- July 28, 2022: My daddy's face is scratchy, when he kisses me.
- July 27, 2022: "It's God's will."
- July 26, 2022: Fast forward umpteen years.
- July 25, 2022: They don't know me.
- July 24, 2022: Three Verses Excerpted From a Longer Song
- July 23, 2022: Three Photographs
- July 22, 2022: Little cherries.
- July 21, 2022: Breakthrough moment, squandered by incompetent leadership.
- July 20, 2022: "How would you feel about blowing him away?"
- July 19, 2022: How does someone that inept become convinced of their personal greatness?
- July 18, 2022: Air cover from the Director.
- July 17, 2022: Dunning-Kruger.
- July 16, 2022: Resentful.
- July 15, 2022: The narcissist in charge.
- July 14, 2022: Too many goals.
- July 13, 2022: "They're so formal."
- July 12, 2022: He sought something more like family.
- July 11, 2022: Even the mountain lions know it.
- July 10, 2022: It's not safe here.
- July 9, 2022: Walk to the kitchen for ice...
- July 8, 2022: One hundred thirteen degrees indoors.
- July 7, 2022: When did we record that song? It's a different version.
- July 6, 2022: There's a spirit in your home, chill and malevolent.
- July 5, 2022: Didn't know you were colorblind, Max.
- July 4, 2022: Santa mugged by passers-by.
- July 3, 2022: Space, white stars against the blackness.
- July 2, 2022: Those people have done nothing.
- July 1, 2022: Rechnender Raum.