July 14, 2023:
Oh Lily I'm so afraid.
Yes.
I feel that life has blown a great big hole through me.
Yes.
Child, you must protect yourself.
Yes.
You can protect yourself with fire.
Yes.
Gabriel before me
Raphael behind me
Michael to my right
Uriel on my left side
In the circle of fire
Yes.
July 13, 2023:
I can't work here. Not in summer.
The spirit is eager, the flesh is heated to two hundred degrees, while tube-driven guitar amps and studio gear add twenty-five more beyond that.
It'll have to wait for winter.
That's okay. We're good. Assuming fire season passes safely.
July 12, 2023:
I can work here.
Cables, microphones, guitar amps. Slung over couches, running down hallways. The house is now the studio.
I love it so much.
- July 11, 2023: And surprisingly noisy.
- July 10, 2023: Hundreds and hundreds of degrees Fahrenheit.
- July 9, 2023: Winter is coming.
- July 8, 2023: Struggling to matter.
- July 7, 2023: Failed Circe.
- July 6, 2023: She fed me pomegranate.
- July 5, 2023: Mountain therapy.
- July 4, 2023: Moody, aggressive postal employee...
- July 3, 2023: "Silky," says our frequently drunken classmate and friend...
- July 2, 2023: Wait, what?.
- July 1, 2023: My heartbeat sounds like footsteps on the stairs...
- June 30, 2023: I have our ancient Pioneer receiver.
- June 29, 2023: Weaponized victimhood.
- June 28, 2023: She's angry all morning.
- June 27, 2023: No sugar tonight.
- June 26, 2023: It turned out I lacked the stamina to build the relationship I'd hoped for.
- June 25, 2023: I can't stop talking to her in my head.
- June 24, 2023: The same sense of unreality.
- June 23, 2023: The same sense of unreality.
- June 22, 2023: Not to go all whingey.
- June 21, 2023: Flood.
- June 20, 2023: If you treat people like children you build a childish organization.
- June 19, 2023: Patronizing technology professionals is not a recipe for success.
- June 18, 2023: I'd known him for two decades before I realized how genuinely stupid he genuinely is.
- June 17, 2023: SYAEHRNKWLTPAI.
- June 16, 2023: HR insists on telling employees we pay market salaries.
- June 15, 2023: Cold calls from "IT" recruiters looking for gigs.
- June 14, 2023: Did you know that automobile windshields are held in place by glue?
- June 13, 2023: She stopped laughing.
- June 12, 2023: I loved the HBJ bookstore downtown.
- June 11, 2023: Upgraded the studio Mac, from a very old OS to a considerably less old.
- June 10, 2023: She's kind that way.
- June 9, 2023: In her video she strides purposefully, even angrily, toward a landmark in the Magic Kingdom.
- June 8, 2023: Her roommate brings home men for noisy gay sex.
- June 7, 2023: Rings, colors, acting out...
- June 6, 2023: Do you have a flight today?
- June 5, 2023: "A magacian flow."
- June 4, 2023: Something of her ambition mimicked parodies of success.
- June 3, 2023: For a time in childhood I deliberately wore mismatched socks.
- June 2, 2023: Articulate very specifically and carefully your goals and purposes.
- June 1, 2023: I shared my interest in George Grosz.