December 8, 2023:
There's a vending machine next to the northern doors. A friend is deciding what to buy. It's 1969: "Come Together" is playing on someone's transistor radio.
Outside those doors an evil little boy's hard rock older brother threatens to kick my ass. I've been hearing that expression for four years now but still find it hilarious, with its inevitable mental image of some kid jumping up and down on one foot aiming blows with the other, like the Black Knight in Monty Python.
Fast forward to 1978 or 79. I lock my bike in the racks beside the western doors, if I've wanted a bike ride. Elsewise I just walk. To sit in the café or in a booth near the lanes, with french fries and a shake and Papermate Flairs and volumes of Louis Althusser.
RIP Clairemont Bowl.
December 7, 2023:
"The smart one and the pretty one," said Miss Nebraska Let's Make a Deal 1969 to her first and second born. Which they quite rightly heard as "the stupid one and the ugly one," logic being always ultimately invincibly transitive.
Toxicity and narcissism begin at home.
December 6, 2023:
I loved the roller derby.
This was the 1960s version, skated on banked tracks far larger than the small ovals today. The banks and long straightaways allowed speed and drama not possible now. Of course, the games were rigged, which as a child I didn't understand. Only that the Thunderbirds (home team) were the good guys, the visitors skated dirty, and Ralphie Valladeres was a hero.
Home from grammar school, T-Birds on TV, the great malingerer, faking illness, to escape.
- December 5, 2023: Frankfurt School:
- December 4, 2023: Aerosmith:
- December 3, 2023: Twelve-year-old incel, desperate for acceptance at the grownups' table.
- December 2, 2023: Rock and roll was honest.
- December 1, 2023: Sad. Angry.
- November 30, 2023: I hurt Lorrie by trying not to hurt her.
- November 29, 2023: Sandy dedicated "Wish You Were Here."
- November 28, 2023: "Always a woman to meee..."
- November 27, 2023: At the bank she walked right through a plate glass window.
- November 26, 2023: She took two days off.
- November 25, 2023: Leibniz sped up in his last decade.
- November 24, 2023: Open on the couch:
- November 23, 2023: Pain: physical and financial.
- November 22, 2023: In the office you introduce yourself to the well-known orchestrator.
- November 21, 2023: You swing your old blue and white VW bus backward around the poles supporting your covered driveway...
- November 20, 2023: Fat man and acid head, holding Booker T and the MGs hostage in a two-hour road movie.
- November 19, 2023: Girls' softball in ninety-degree sun.
- November 18, 2023: "Watch me fly!"
- November 17, 2023: The extra lanes make no difference at all.
- November 16, 2023: Spinning world, nausea, dry heaves.
- November 15, 2023: An old boss, an old department.
- November 14, 2023: Death on the right.
- November 13, 2023: Books on the headboard.
- November 12, 2023: I am a magnet for cops and crazy people.
- November 11, 2023: Lorde is my copilot.
- November 10, 2023: It's been a long time since I was up at 3am, writing.
- November 9, 2023: On the road between Billings and Butte it all falls together.
- November 8, 2023: All the kids in the crossing.
- November 7, 2023: "Who cares about them?"
- November 6, 2023: Trolley bro.
- November 5, 2023: High altitude.
- November 4, 2023: Old town: home at last.
- November 3, 2023: Wait, what?
- November 2, 2023: Ink, shoulder to fingertips, red ribbons on cutiepie pigtails...
- November 1, 2023: Bulk-ish Mexican bro with iPhone to his ear.
- October 31, 2023: High fire season.
- October 30, 2023: He's much, much older — and he wants a kiss.
- October 29, 2023: Your former Big Brother's adult daughter chats as she helps you pack.
- October 28, 2023: Wait — this is the wrong street.
- October 27, 2023: You should have parked closer.
- October 26, 2023: Street of houses on the summit before a very steep hill.
- October 25, 2023: Your former Big Brother is shocked that you don't have a financial advisor...
- October 24, 2023: Back in my world.
- October 23, 2023: What's that song?
- October 22, 2023: Motion: brilliant.
- October 21, 2023: Cook died here.
- October 20, 2023: The office empath declares me to be angry.
- October 19, 2023: There's a flaw in the system.
- October 18, 2023: Underground cavern inside the Gold Mine ride.
- October 17, 2023: 4,100 miles in six driving days.
- October 16, 2023: I am the KING of roadtrip junk food.
- October 15, 2023: "Actually, it is kindof clever how they punish philosophers."
- October 14, 2023: Of course...
- October 13, 2023: Highway cops in California hide from the road.
- October 12, 2023: Is there, in truth, a "will to live"?
- October 11, 2023: I wanted to study recording.
- October 10, 2023: The leadership is a cult.
- October 9, 2023: Between visits they replaced the outhouse with indoor plumbing.
- October 8, 2023: All over the midwest, all over Nebraska, all over the country.
- October 7, 2023: "So, how did you die, Mark?"
- October 6, 2023: "Count the number of trucks you encounter."
- October 5, 2023: Come down the pass on I-215 into heavy, brown haze.
- October 4, 2023: Desert exodus, I-15 South.
- October 3, 2023: The final two hours are annoying.
- October 2, 2023: Fifteen miles.
- October 1, 2023: I don't like the driving.
