January 6, 2024:
"I found one with money in it!" Four or five years old, holds up a plastic easter egg, unopened. "Whaaaaa?", very pretty lady sings in very pretty lady voice. Half a mile later I'm still laughing.
"I hurt my thumb, when I was fighting him." Thirteen-ish, spotty, scraggly, physically and I think morally unattractive. "I think I caught it on his ribbon."
Grownups — grownups? — on electric bikes, doing laps around the park. I'm unsure if it's exercise or tourism.
January 5, 2024:
Strikingly tall. Six feet; dirty blonde; hair horns bound with red embroidery floss; fishnets; leather biker jacket. I try and fail not to steal glances.
She's visible over my friend's shoulder, seated near the fireplace outdoors at Stone. We're talking Frank Bardacke's book on farmworkers; she's on her phone, seemingly exasperated her date doesn't show.
My friend has cancer. I think about death, his and mine, while over his shoulder vibrant blonde life frowns with impatience.
January 4, 2024:
Crowds in the station.
Daypacks, water bottles. They came to march, now they're going home.
Up the coast: Del Mar, Encinitas, Cardiff, Carlsbad, Oceanside.
Good on 'em.
- January 3, 2024: Aged by weather.
- January 2, 2024: Hefty lady rudely has her feet on the chair opposite.
- January 1, 2024: Their dialog has its cadence.
- December 31, 2023: Major Afro, 1970s style, Buddy Miles, full beard to match.
- December 30, 2023: White hair, thin legs with red sores...
- December 29, 2023: My imaginary friend is Robbie the Robot, from Forbidden Planet.
- December 28, 2023: There's something wrong. Something about food.
- December 27, 2023: No no no.
- December 26, 2023: In all the sands, in all the motes, in all the fragments, in all the stars: what is my life?
- December 25, 2023: The wargame boys.
- December 24, 2023: "Is this line secure?"
- December 23, 2023: I loved Crazy Guggenheim.
- December 22, 2023: My little bedroom.
- December 21, 2023: Home. Sure, of course.
- December 20, 2023: What is that, Cheetah?
- December 19, 2023: i don't enjoy that snide elitism.
- December 18, 2023: in the period when we played together, i liked his songs.
- December 17, 2023: "I'm going to live to one hundred and fifty", says La Catrina, already dead.
- December 16, 2023: "No!", says The Know-It-All Who Doesn't.
- December 15, 2023: Two steps forward, two steps back.
- December 14, 2023: "You're not eating enough," said the vampire...
- December 13, 2023: Like elephants at the zoo, the sitters are kindly but they're dumb.
- December 12, 2023: Nanterre. The Red University.
- December 11, 2023: Professor Falstaff, with his clique-ism and his primary interest in undergraduate XX chromosomes...
- December 10, 2023: To adopt such a stance is to have a certain attitude...
- December 9, 2023: I came home from Montana...
- December 8, 2023: There's a vending machine next to the northern doors.
- December 7, 2023: "The smart one and the pretty one..."
- December 6, 2023: I loved the roller derby.
- December 5, 2023: Frankfurt School:
- December 4, 2023: Aerosmith:
- December 3, 2023: Twelve-year-old incel, desperate for acceptance at the grownups' table.
- December 2, 2023: Rock and roll was honest.
- December 1, 2023: Sad. Angry.
- November 30, 2023: I hurt Lorrie by trying not to hurt her.
- November 29, 2023: Sandy dedicated "Wish You Were Here."
- November 28, 2023: "Always a woman to meee..."
- November 27, 2023: At the bank she walked right through a plate glass window.
- November 26, 2023: She took two days off.
- November 25, 2023: Leibniz sped up in his last decade.
- November 24, 2023: Open on the couch:
- November 23, 2023: Pain: physical and financial.
- November 22, 2023: In the office you introduce yourself to the well-known orchestrator.
- November 21, 2023: You swing your old blue and white VW bus backward around the poles supporting your covered driveway...
- November 20, 2023: Fat man and acid head, holding Booker T and the MGs hostage in a two-hour road movie.
- November 19, 2023: Girls' softball in ninety-degree sun.
- November 18, 2023: "Watch me fly!"
- November 17, 2023: The extra lanes make no difference at all.
- November 16, 2023: Spinning world, nausea, dry heaves.
- November 15, 2023: An old boss, an old department.
- November 14, 2023: Death on the right.
- November 13, 2023: Books on the headboard.
- November 12, 2023: I am a magnet for cops and crazy people.
- November 11, 2023: Lorde is my copilot.
- November 10, 2023: It's been a long time since I was up at 3am, writing.
- November 9, 2023: On the road between Billings and Butte it all falls together.
- November 8, 2023: All the kids in the crossing.
- November 7, 2023: "Who cares about them?"
- November 6, 2023: Trolley bro.
- November 5, 2023: High altitude.
- November 4, 2023: Old town: home at last.
- November 3, 2023: Wait, what?
- November 2, 2023: Ink, shoulder to fingertips, red ribbons on cutiepie pigtails...
- November 1, 2023: Bulk-ish Mexican bro with iPhone to his ear.
