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June 2, 2003:

None of my friends could stand her. They saw the way she treated me, and were offended on my behalf.

Which only made me distant from them. Little by little I withdrew from them all, so that in time she became my only source of emotional contact. Once she was no longer part of my life I had no-one to turn to.

This is what relationships have in common with addiction. Or this one had. Codependence, a kind of emotional Stockholm Syndrome that became more and more pronounced the more traumas we endured.

You can rehearse the history of how it came to this. Ultimately it was simply the wrong thing.