Mark Phillips' Pages: Workbook: 9/1/03: I took it all very personally.

Jacob Lawrence, "You Can Buy Bootleg Whiskey for Twenty-Five Cents a Quart" (1943) — Jacob Lawrence, *You Can Buy Bootleg Whiskey for Twenty-Five Cents a Quart* (1943)

September 1, 2003:

I took it all very personally. This is what I now question: wasn't it more about alcohol and drugs than it was about me?

Aren't you now repeating the same mistake you've made from the beginning? Inventing excuses on behalf of an evil and undeserving manipulator? As if you've internalized the manipulation so thoroughly that after fourteen years you refuse to allow it to end?