Mark's Pages

June 29, 2008:

Crowley's misogyny was rooted in the core logic of his spiritual belief: that women were distractions from productive focus on "will", where "will" means, the root purpose of the current incarnation.

In the more bitter passages he saw them as psychic vampires, stealing energy, and time.

I don't know. Has that been our experience?

I feel glad that I was able to help you. It's probably reasonable to say that you would not have made your recovery without my intervention. But I also feel bitter that two and a half years are gone, and that during that time people have died whose approval of my work I'd hoped to seek.

I can't see making a different decision. I felt too much compassion for you to focus in any disciplined way on my own purposes. And, my wasted years are not your responsibility.

But I also feel a mournful sense that the clock is ticking, that there are far more days behind than ahead, and that my time on earth has not been well spent.

Do what thou will shall be the whole of the law.