January 26, 2011:
So much alcohol with that bunch. They started the day with gin and tonics, then nipped 'round the pub for bitters, before even discussing breakfast. They were buzzed pretty much always.
At the time I lacked experience with addiction. Today I suspect it did damage to all of our relationships.
It certainly held me apart from them. My first love and her friends. In my eyes their behavior became seedy. Bars and sexual intrigues. It hurt me when I became a victim of the latter. It hurt them all, I think.
This isn't to suggest some monocausal explanation for my failures. Merely one cause among many.