January 9, 2012:
But even here, cut yourself some slack.
Her sexuality was all about vanity.
She was dishonest.
Where the yummy sex you describe is the outcome of your patience,
your ability to cut through her mind games and mirror games to reach the real
despite her posturing and ego and narcissism.
So there's truth in what you said.
Later, not that long later, she remembers none of it.
When you try to remind her she just looks bored.