September 2, 2019:

Stillness equals quiet.

Recline on couch, working: fine.
Sit up in bed, working: fine.
Stand, walk, change physical location in space: not fine.

Movement equals tears.

Cry on the way to the kitchen and back to the couch.
Cry on the way to bed at night, cry on the way to bathroom in the morning.
Stay in bed instead: fine.

Stillness equals quiet, movement equals tears, around and around, where the circle says,
If only it were possible to stand still until time ends and the world goes dark without you.