October 17, 2019:

I like her but she's loud, and I need to be invisible in public.

She has affection for me but her attention is scattered. She wants to see herself through me, so that, when she doesn't, she loses interest.

In theory her exhibitionism should mate well with my voyeurism. But she wants to include me in her exhibitionism and I'm too private.

She's insensitive to my feelings, as I've frequently been toward hers. I think, some of her insensitivity is consciously intended as response.