December 16, 2020:

I cannot be her absolution. If I could I would probably refuse.

Still she insists, in her stubborn, aggressive, ignorant hillbilly way. Responding to my letters with the conversation she wants, although I've attempted to politely deflect.

I don't belong in that world. Their world. Bounded by ignorance and violence and murder and rape. I opted-out decades ago. That decision was correct then, remains correct now.

And so, because I don't know what to say without being hurtful, I'll ghost, going suddenly and permanently silent, after a short burst of renewed contact I did not ask for and do not welcome. Where ghosting is rude, but the alternative is harmful, and in this instance I prefer rudeness to aggression.