February 26, 2022:
The unimaginable narcissism of that decision.
That she'd follow me, without discussion or sounding me out, to my sanctuary, the future I'd been so relieved to find, in part at least specifically to remove myself from her.
The unfathomable naïveté of my own decisions. To share my joy of discovery and liberation with those people, as though any could be trusted. As though even a single among them had the beginnings of a glimmer of a clue.