March 26, 2022:
Why all that?
Queen of the Disco Bar, center of the evening vortex.
Ego? Exploration? Insecurity?
I see it in hindsight through the lens of addiction: my later experience of watching up close an alcoholic functioning and failing to function. Where her criticisms of yours truly as "socially incompetent" or at minimum antisocial were displacements of her desire to get loaded: a conflict then that centered on my need for study time. An opposition between addictive tendencies on the one hand and ADHD on the other.
The fact that we were doomed doesn't mean we weren't sincere.