April 18, 2022:
She's angry.
She feels mistreated, in what context is tough to say. The world, seemingly. Undervalued, underestimated, under esteemed, to where she wants a cult of self, where her followers prove to someone — who? — that dismissing her is mistaken.
I'm angry.
With focus and intensity and the depth of history. The way she hurt me so badly, with a simple teenage note full of truth and entitlement. Invaded my sanctuary, over my strenuous objection. Play-acted fraudulently decades later as an abused femme in a transparent and pitiable bid for control. Tried to correct me over things I know which she doesn't.
I'm likely unfair. She was young and she's in pain and people generally are completely fucked up. Why should she be special?
Because she wants to be. So that by her own criterion she merits focus.