September 7, 2022:
Overlaid or overdetermined by growing sense of unreality. Not solipsism, but simulation. The digital physics conclusion that the universe is fake.
Why ecological collapse, political collapse, resurgent fascism, ideological assault on objective truth, all combining at the exact moment one's personal box of days nears empty? Where external and internal failure overlap like language, saying, It's all your fault for not making more of the time you were given.
Stupid life. Stupid, pointless, failed, wasted life.