October 13, 2022:
Where did they come from?
The dialectic.
Outcomes of the abuse she suffered in childhood. Where years in the closet taught her to retreat into mental worlds, so that the books she read in adulthood continued her childhood mental life on a different scale, with different means and mechanisms.
Evil produces its outcome in her, which produces its outcome in me, and I reproduce her mental life on a vastly widened canvas.