January 30, 2023:

Alive, but hurting.

I am my mother's child, I'll love you 'til my breathing stops
I'll love you 'til you call the cops on me
But in our darkest hours, I stumbled on a secret power
I'll find a way to be without you, babe

For years I've gone to bed as early as possible. Not to live on MN time. Because I don't want to be awake. I want the day to stop.

I want the days to stop.