August 21, 2023:

She wanted a hero to identify with. A way to be outside of herself, a means of escape into imagination. This was how she consumed any work of fiction, whether written or filmed.

I knew that, but I wasn't thinking. I was trying to communicate something of myself — not so much genuinely searching for works she'd enjoy. I hoped she'd learn about me from the films I shared.

Not so much.

We failed, because I was just as wrapped up in my shit as she was in hers.