August 30, 2023:
I loved you to an unhealthy degree.
After decades I finally know why.
Alone in tiny apartments with a distant, damaged parent.
Alone in schools not intended for me.
Alone in neighborhoods I no longer matched.
Alone without friends or peers who all detested you.
I looked to our magical communion to anchor and complete me,
where a benign relationship would have held that desperation for totalization
at some kind of reasonable distance.